am i some kind of a BITCH??

This lately, too many things happen in my life, i can't stand and live it anymore, the one that i love, and the one that used to born me, feed me, and care about me calling me as BITCH!!, damn, it's really killing me...

last Wednesday, i had argument with her( about the place that my 2nd sis will further her study ), before i go to school, she slap me, for using the FUCK word to my 2rd sis, she said tht i should not use tht kind of word and it's a sin!! damn, i argue back, and tell her, my sis doesn't even show me a respect!! isn't tht a sin too!!
i ran and go upstairs, i can't hold my tears, and she follow me to the upstairs, she said "What's wrong with u Nurul!!" i remain silent but she saw my evil smile, she scolded me again" How could u smile, when i'm mad at u??!!" she slap me again...T__T ( I'm smiling coz i want to hide my tears)and then i'm quickly pickup my bag and go to school...

i cant hide my tears anymore, i keep crying at school, my other friends try to calm me down, my class teacher know about my problem, then she spread it to others teachers=__="

after back from school, my 4th sis tell me tht my mum checked my fon, and damn it!! she know about my relationship with my ex-bf Gary...and my mum want to check all my email or facebook, she's really going to far!!

But liyana already delete the pictures..soo i'm really glad about it..coz my mum wont find out anything..

this morning, i feel soo tired and lazy, dont want to go to school, but i still wake-up early, to avoid my parents from keep blabering at my ears...

suddenly my mum said something, she said that "Please don't ever think i don't know what had u did, u such a budak jahat( bad girl )" that words really killing me...how come my own flesh and blood called me using that such word!!



hahhaa, i do look like budak jahat sometime.who doesn't rite?

am i a bad girl?? NO!! i'm a very2 good girl, is it like a big fault for me for falling in love with someone, couple or fall in love with someone that not my own race?? or b'coz in that pic i was holding hands with Gary?? damn it!!, i'm just a normal person, who really want to be in love, and feel been taking care of someone, coz she never did!! she never love me, even she feed me, gave me a place to sleep, but the real is she just care baout my education!!, never care what i like or dislike..everything tht she wants me to do, i have to follow her order..!!

Gary and me..


maybe yes, i'm a bad girl, I'm really good fooling guys who is desprately want to have fun with me( ok2, i did it b'coz i dont want make the guys think that it's soo easy for them to have fun with me, i'm not tht kind of girls, and i dont like guys who cheat on his gf ).

i never do drugs, drink or sex!! not even ringan2 ok!! i never stoled anyone bf, or husband, or even the gold digger( pisau cukur )...

soo, am i still a bad girl?? answering me!! shout out at my chatbox..thanks=)

Camping!!

hehehe, last week i went to camping, it's a Pengakap Kelana camping, never heard of that? well, Pengakap Kelana also known as Pengakap Pemimpin, 18- until 25 years old, soo i'm not longer a Pengakap Remaja, coz i'm 19 already, and i have to go to this Pengakap Kelana camp, soo i boleh di iktiraf sebagai Pengakap Kelana.

i'm not the only one who join this camping, a few of my classmates also join this camping, coz they also Pengakap Members..

it was a good experience for us, coz this is our first time went to camping, and everyone was soo excited about it until now.

our first meet with other Pengakap Kelana members, was not that good, coz everyone do their own work and doesnt even say a word..lol=__="

but when we start to build our tent, all the Pengakap Kelana, start to give us their hands and build up the tent, actually it's not that hard to build up the tent..=)

after set up our tent, we all had our lunch and prepared for solat zOhor , and after that Pengakap Kelana, panggil we all coz they had prepared us a few activities on that day, soo, we all play games like Treasure Hunt, and we also had Halangan Komando, but unfortunately we all out of time, soo we all only can do just a few activities..but it still fun=D





Paan as my Group leader( TReasure Hunt )
i'm the last girl in that row;)
they asked us to taste a lot of thing..yuck!~>__< we had been toutured like this..wuu wuu...!!~T__Tlari2( run2);p

detention, coz we all stoled others group clue;pteam1=DTeam2;pteam3=)



snap2 pic yaw!!=D
our nite activities ( we all have to sit alone, with our eyes close in the dark place ) it's really scared me to death;(
at last!! we get our APOLET, and now we'r Pengakap Kelana=D YEAY!!~
CELEBRATE, and eating BBQ;) YUMMY!!
Our FASI=D
our last day;) mandi-manda di sungai=D

ENJOY playing with the water=)

Treasure hunt, games, sitting in the dark near to the forest, playing water at the river( the river was so clean and beautiful ), it was really Blast! and fun..all the fasi also nice and very sporting^^

but it's only 2 days and 1 nite, but it's still a very Wonderful memory for us..and our Motto is "Sekali berpengakap, selamanyer berpengakap" =)

visiting to Parlimen

Last Wednesday, form6 students visiting to Parlimen, OMG!! we all soo excited about it, coz we have been waiting for it since we'r in lower 6...hehehe..

Sze kuan message me ( a nite before going to parlimen )and ask me, if she can come to my house, coz her mum had to fetch her brother to school early tomorow, and she afraid that our school still dark and no one there, soo i told her that she can come to my house, but in one condition, she must miscall me when she woke up in the next morning, coz i'm really hard to get up early by myself. hehehe silly girl;p

then the next morning she came to my house, very early, but i'm glad that i also already prepared myself before going to school, soo she wait for me a few minutes before we walk to school..
it's feel really different, coz it had been a long time, i've been walk to school alone after my sister Liyana already graduated from highschool, and i also feel very happy lol;D

then, upper 6 student went to canteen for breakfast, and we ate nasi lemak, mineral water, and gardenia bread..before we start our journey..

then we all took bus to go to the parlimen, we all also feel very nervous, coz last a few years, one of our senior fall asleep during the parlimen, then they been chased out from the parlimen hall, soo we cant fall asleep and repeat the same mistake that been made by our seniors..my classmate warned me, coz i'm a sleepyhead girl, easy to fall asleep even when i put my head on the table for a few minutes lol=__="

but, fiuhh!!~ i was very glad, coz i managed not to fall asleep during the parlimen, and it was very exciting experience for me=) and i also understand much more better about the parlimen,=)
btw, before we all go inside the parlimen, our stuff like phones, ipod, or electronic things have to give to the guards, coz all tht stuff was not allowed, the security really tied.=(

after back from the parlimen, i'm rushing and preparing myslef to go watch movie at jusco with my classmate, we watched HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON, that movie was hillarious, fun, and the Nite Fury dragon was soo cute!!=D



ok, now enjoy the pic=D



toodles=)

Big Family Vacation!~

hi there guys, remember my last update?? it was about i'm gonna go to Kuantan for BIG Family Vacation isnt'it?? hehehe, sorry coz i'm too busy to update about it, soo now i'm gonna tell u how was it...

around 8:00 am, after done all packing, my family went to Gombak first( my grandma house), b'coz at there, all families gathered before start our journey to KUANTAN.

at there, all my cousins seem too excited about it, especially the kids, after all families there, we all start our journey together, before that my dad planned the cars, who gonna go first, and who gonna follow which car, soo the first car will be my uncle and my aunt( Ruzy family ), and follow by (Norly family),( Paklang family), and ( Ida family aka my family), soo no one will get lost during the journey.

the journey will take around 5 hours before reach the apartment hotel, soo after 2 hours we all stopped at rumah rehat, to have our lunch coz it almost 12:oo am, soo after had our lunch, we all continue our journey...

around 2 or 3:oo pm we all arived to our apartment hotel, all the adults registered to the hotel counter, and we all waiting in the car..

after everything was clear, we all start carried our luggage to the apartment hotel, there will be 2 apartment, soo 2 family will be in 1 apartment..soo the girls( my cousins and i) will be place in one Master Bed Room yeay!!~

after we all reach to our apartment hotel, the place is quiet nice, and each apartment have 2 room, kitchen and 2 bathroom, and we got it with lower price, yeay!!~ thanks to the bank and govermant.

the kids making noise, coz they want to go swim at the pool, but however all parents seem tired and want to rest after hours of jouney. the parents try to calm all the kids and asked them to wait a few hours more, coz it was too hot, and the sunlight will burn their skin...

my cousins and i and my grandma, rest and take a nap b'coz we all are too tired after the journey, carried our luggage, and unpack our things..

soo we all spent 3 days and 2 nite at the apartment hotel, actually we all not do a lot of activities, coz our aim is just a relaxing vacation with our big family after it had been almost 13 years we all never go to vacation after my grandpa past away~ i miss u grandpa!!~

soo our activities is just, Big dinner, swim at the pool, and picnic at the beach, and mandi laut( swim at the ocean). i'm sure all of u can't wait to see my vacation pictures rite? soo here it is..enjoy!~

here is the view from my apartment hotel(very beautiful) and i forgot to tell u guys, actually this is a private hotel and beach. hehehe^__~

my cousin( dina ), my sis and me, our first nite

snaping pictures before going to bed..lol;p
my lil sis iman and my eldest cousin lea ( Lea trying to teached iman how to do the rocking posed) hahaha!!~
this girl need to teach how to sit properly lol=__="

psycho cousins hahaha!! i donno what are they trying to do=__="

my other cousins=D

2nd nite at Kuantan. Big dinner everyone!!~ hehehe we all ate a lot of seafoods!!~NYum2!!~=D

ready for the picnic=)

omg!! everyone insane!! my aunts, my mum, my sis and making all peace sign exclude lea.

everyone eating KFC Lol!~

the wind is too strong!!~ hahaha
my grandma smilling looking at all her grandchildren playing and swim at the sea..
liyana and me=)
too skinny lol!!~
overjoy..hahaha!!~
jump2 ladies!!~
PAKCIK WAN..=)

LOVE U OPAH!!( MY Grandma)
hahaha, trying to look sexy at the beach, my smiling and laughing spoiled that pic..ahakx!~;p
apply sunblock before going to the pool!~
ready for the pool!~ heh
silly lea and my aunt...hahaa!!~
babes in jacuzzi..woo woo!!~
last day before going back to kl;(

in the car otw back to kl( arrghh my hair, the chlorine make my hair turn like this!!)

ok guys, i can't update to many things coz too bz heh..and the conclusion is, that holiday vacation is awsome, eventhough not too many activities, but the aim is to spent our quality time together as a big family..and i hope my grandma happy coz she's been wait for this vacation seen 13 years ago...

toodles;)